The episodes aren't quite to this extent for me, but it's definitely a different, more amplified version of me when I've had one. I've chosen to avoid Lithium as I don't think I need that strong of a drug, but I find that I can control the bipolar disorder with the meds I'm on and the skills I've learned in therapy. I'm thankful for this.
Sometimes I wonder, though, will it always be enough? Will I have to choose Lithium? For those that it works for, I can understand the struggle and this article does a good job at conveying what the struggle is and how hard it can be to choose for one reason or another.